Being Multifan so Stressful

I just write about why I like younger boy in my mind….

I made some writing with my bad English langue, I feel so sorry..

actually, I don’t know my felling when I start writing. I have some bad fell with my old habit. I liking people who really younger than me and especially I meet with this boy in Youtube, Instagram and other SNS. Yes this boy not exist in my real live. I have more about liking this boy. They make me have some dictionary for my English literature or when I talking with some people who cannot understand with my language. that's right, I have some problem with my talking habit. I have langue from another space. But when I start liking this boy, I think, maybe they can understand when I talking with my langue from another space, hahaha

This boy from new group KPOP, and we can call them SEVENTEEN.

What I especially love about Seventeen is, that they never make fun of other’s look. In the era when it’s trend for idols to mock own members for skin tone. Size of eyes or appereance in general putting them in uncomportable situation for sake of being funny, Seventeen not only avoids doing so but support and praises all of it.

When Soonyoung or we can call his Hoshi, this is stage name and real name is Soonyoung. wondered if he sees world differently with his small eyes (if you see this boy, he’s eyes really really small actually when you see it, its look like 10:10)  members around him didn’t find it amusing. When seokmin tried to be funny saying the fact he ran into door is why he looks today. Seungkwan yelled at him that’s he’s handsome. Not to mention the fact, no one makes fun of minggyu skin tone but instead they compliment it. Or When chines member feel shy to speak in Korean, they encourage them. The list could go on in infinity, but you got the point.

Maybe you can see Vernon in ISSAC when he put in other team, not same team with seventeen because he have mix blood, and member respect him so much, Seongcheol or we can call him Scoups, he’s a leader from Seventeen, Scoups run to Vernon when seventeen got medal, and grab his hand to join with seventeen member and have enjoy and happily as a team. I really proud of them, you know what I like them so much, they are just a 20 boy and 17 boy. They are born in 95 and 98line but they are really respect with other member. Am so glad for them.

You can see when seungkwan made a speaking funny with his English language, but I so proud with him. He’s very talkative but I like him so much. Especially Joshua Hong Who can make girl melt in one second with his eyesmile and just sitting in the wall and playing guitar,.

Seventeen members have more respect for each other. They never fail to give credits to any single one of them. This is one of billion reason why I love this kids. And if you ask me, who is my bias in seventeen, I just breath and I don’t have everysingle word to say for you, but maybe I just can say ‘you think it’s easy just have one?’ yes, member from seventeen really ruined my bias list. Sometime I like Scoups and Jeonghan, they are really cute couple in this group, but other day I melt with Hong Joshua when he smile and playing guitar. In other day to I fall with Hoshi because he’s funny and cute, and other day another day I just fall with all of them, its really tiring so much me when you ask me, who is my bias in seventeen. Its remaind me so much the time when I start become fangirl and liking boy group SHINee as a Shawol till the end

I have other problem, I became kpopers every single day and its really really long time ago, I think its start from 2008 when I see Shinee in noona neomu yeoppo MV, and just one second I fall in love with innocent boy who walking and sitting with innocent face, yeaaay its onew, yeaay.

But the problem is, being multi-fandom fan is stressful as fuck. Because am I already like so many groups but new groups debut (like I fall in love with seventeen and its really hard when someone ask me who are my bias in seventeen, and I just throw my phone in my bad and literally screaming ‘you think it’s easy just have one?’) and I wanna get to know them too, but I find myself running out of energy and time to learn about everyone, but once I learn about the new groups. I start to neglect the older groups and I try my best to love everyone (as like I promise with SHINee, I promise but I think its broken as fuck when I start enjoying fangirling with seventeen and bangtan boys) but it’s just doesn’t work out, yes its not working because you try your best but you just sitting in youtube with new boy group. I always end up feeling like ‘you’re leaving someone out’ and everything’s just so fucken stressful.